So, quickquickquick update…
Last weekend, I don’t really remember exactly how I did… probably okish, edging toward the bad side… but oh well, its in the past now.
After that, I began to count cals more strictly, writing everything down again. Monday ate about 800 calories and… gained. Wth? I guess I’ve fucked up my metabolism up a bit more than I thought ://
Then after that all, I basically fasted all week until Monday, eating a few bites of lunch, and then the rest was liquids. Got down to about 142. Then ate about as any “normal” person would’ve eaten, basically, whatever I wanted through out the day without it turning into a binge, and still lost, bring me only a pound over my lowest weight.
Then it all went downhill this weekend. Binged and purged twice Saturday, and binged three times Sunday, but could only purge twice. Bleh. So, I ended up gaining a bunch. I’m ashamed and don’t really feel like typing the number. So I won’t. I’m hoping that some of it is water weight, so we’ll see…
On another note, I planned on joining the swim team. Mostly for the exercise, and the excuse it gave me to not eat Lol. The first practice was today, but I need insurance to participate. I don’t have it, and my mom’s being too cheap to even get my seasonal insurance, so there goes that idea probably. We’ll see what I can do…
Well, that’s about it I guess… I’ll try to post again/more.
Xx – H
P.S. Feels good to write everything down… I feel so much less stressed now Hah.
That's exactly how I feel after getting everything off my chest on here. lol
ReplyDeleteI've only ever binged two or three times but that was because I was sitting at home doing nothing all day those days. lol It's actually really hard to just not eat when you aren't busy.
I've always wanted to be on a swim team. You should try your hardest to get on it or you'll regret it. I'm almost 20 now and wish I had.
Good luck with everything! =)
Da hell? Why should you need insurance to participate in the swimming team? That makes no sense! D:
ReplyDeleteBlogs are there for venting. I'm glad you have the space to get things off you chest :D MUCH better than stewing on them for ages!
YAY YOU KNIT TOO! *Glomps*
There are tons of small projects for the easily distractible on Ravelry! Or you should learn colourwork, keeps you interested since each row in the pattern is waaaay different. Or socks, the yarn keeps changing colour all the time! Sooo pretty!
No, no I'm not enabling you (Re:knitting) at all. *Innocent face*
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Thank you for commenting! I will follow you and get caught up on your blog, I love reading blogs all in one go, it's something I always do, don't know why. I think I just like to feel like I 'know' people I follow. I probably sound really sad lol.
ReplyDeleteHope things are alright with you
xo