So as im typing this I have a giant bowl of artificially orange dyed pasta in my lap. Once im done, off to the shower to wash up and throw up. 2nd binge day in a row, and as usual, I cant stand myself.
But I still have hope. The reason im eating the pasta is because I figured I might as well. The day started off great, but I threw it down the drain shortly after my early dinner with bread and peanut butter. I’m starting all over again tomorrow. Sunday is supposed to be the start of a new week, and this Sunday im restarting my life.
I vow to workout, and I think I’m going to start the ABC diet, though it will be kind of hard to avoid food on the weekends now since my mom’s schedule has changed. What I think I might do is modify the diet a bit, combining days 1 and 2, 3 and 4 and so on, and just try to work out everyday as well. That way, no fast days unless I decide to do it on my own and can, and im pretty still pretty sure none of the numbers would add up to 1000, except for the day…
Im also thinking about posting pictures for a before image, since im about up to my starting this blog weight. Did I forget to mention that? 146ish this morning, and that’s on the low side of my guess since I had already ate breakfast when I weighed. I can tell ive gained too, because my goal clothes I was so excited to finally wear now fit super snugly if at all now.
Didn’t do measurements today either, but ill do them tomorrow since im starting anew. Might even make Sundays measurement days from now on…
Well, almost done with my pasta. Going to finnish, and then you know what else…
P.S. going to do a few hundred jumpingjacks and situps later, probably. Just so I hopefully don’t gain anymore than I have…
Xx- H
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