Three words. Epic Fucking Fail. That’s all I can say… about tonight, about me. William, I just read your comment, and I feel like I failed you as well. Three binge days in a row… I wish I could say that this is the worst, but I’ve had worse periods…
Can’t even purge, because I already finished my shower, can’t take another, and I cant make myself purge into the toilet. It’s just impossible. I don’t know why, but I just can’t do it. If only they were asleep, I would do it in the kitchen sink, but that’s not an option either.
Doing another one of my sea salt cleanses, and I can feel it working right now… give it another 10 minutes max and I’ll be on the toilet again… oh joy. Better than allowing this food sit inside me. I think once I feel emptied out from the first glass of my “magic water” I’ll force down another one. Just to make sure, just to be safe. I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep tonight…
Just added everything up… my totals for today is about 600-700 calories. Not bad, I guess. Just seems so horrible since I was actually having a good day for once. Ugh. Not sure if I’m going to fast tomorrow, or just start ABC diet. Not my cheaters version, but the real one… we’ll see I guess. I think this is my last post for the night, but that might change… if not,
Night-night
Xx – H
P.s. is this too much writing? Should I compress my day into just one post? Its just easier for my to write what I’m thinking when I’m thinking it…
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