Sigh... 144

I guess i can't eat 1700 calories without gaining two pounds D:
Found that out the hard way, i guess. Stepped on the scale, and there was that ugly number, the one that i was trying to get to just over a moth ago... it's amazing how fast things change, isn't it? One week your elated with a number, and then when you gain the weight you lost back, the number suddenly seem so ugly, so high...
Don't worry, though, im doing something about it haha. It's pretty easy not to eat breakfast or lunch, since in the morning i'm home alone, and at lunch, my teacher lets me stay in his room and i can avoid the lunch room entirely. its once i get home when eating becomes my problem. i usually start with something small, but then it usually makes the hunger worse. so i eat more. and more. and before i know it, i can eat 1000 calories (Its usually not that bad. thats just on my badbadbad days where i start with stupid decisions and end with a few more.) Today wasn't much different, but i kept in control, mostly. Well, not so much. had a total of 640 cals when i got home, and about 50 this morning, bring total for today to almost 700.
I plan to workout later, in about an hour probably, to burn off at least half of it, if my mom doesn't follow me into the workout room again :/ Also going to dring a large cup of white tea brewed at over three times normal strength before bed since green and white tea are suposed to be great for your metabolism.

Tomorrow, I'm suposed to be going to a concert, but who knows if i actually will. mom might change her mind, or something else might come up... or my mom might just change her mind. But whether i go or not, i think ill fast tomorrow, try to cleanse my system a bit... it will be super easy if i do go to the concert, and i can keep the money i dont spend on food. it will be harder if i dont go, but possible. If i dont fast, i plan on just working out alot, and trying to get in the negative for calories.